Is She The Reason...

In a perfect world we would be together, but I guess that’s why we are not together because I’m not perfect & neither is he. Imagine having the name of a lost love tattooed not only on your skin but in your heart….that’s permanent right?.. And having to watch him everyday with his new chick run around town like its okay, knowing every time you go home to bathe your skin, every time you lift up your pretty pink fluffy loafer, you’ll see his name smiling at you ever so painfully. Well today I’m saying it’s not okay, these eyes have seen enough. I messed up, I admit, but why do I feel as though I am being tortured everyday by someone who claims to still **** me, let alone care about me?
Ladies why are we so prone to falling for the wrong guys, or falling for the right guys and driving him away, I know I am guilty of it. I have met Mr Right, Mr Wrong, Mr Right Now & Mr Hell No… My situation sucks though man, His new misses really knows how to piss me off, intentionally doing things like a constant reminder singing like an evil temptress “I got your man”… I remember when I had the power man, I remember when I was in control, I am/was a fast paced girl & he chased me, I slowed down for him to catch up & to hear what he was saying, but by the time I understood what he was saying, felt what he was saying & loved what he was saying, its like we just missed each other... my fast living got the better of me & left my injured in worse places than my hamstrings, my heart & now my injury slowed me down & I feel as though am the one doing the chasing now. He’s not even my usual type… appearance wise he’s not a spring chicken, but sometimes materialistic things can cloud our judgement & not allow us to grasp the true essence of things when it’s available, we could talk about anything, spoke about out goals, our futures, past mistakes, our fears & inhibitions… the comfort of married life minus the weight of a ring can be so harmonious, until the bond is broken & you don’t have to try because we are not legally bound to one & another. Maybe I should of paid attention to mummy when she said “You don’t know a good think till its gone” because even she is fighting for a lifetime partner, know body ever really wants to be alone forever, I know that for sure. So If I did just gave up my one good shot at happiness because I didn’t understand all the good things I had, Should I just accept loneliness & defeat? I mean karma is a bitch right, we’ve all met her once in our lifetime & She’s Introduced herself, got real comfy & showed us what she’s made of & that bitch is bad to the bone, but despite all that I’d take her on again, I mean… it’s a selfish world right, majority of people are out for themselves, so why not try to get back my ex, new miss or not. I never let him go, I drove him away, now I am reversing & taking control of things that are important to me, this shit is basic to you right now, but I’ll fill in a lot of cracks right & give you the full complicated truth… I’m not the bitch I am appearing to be though, not making excuses for wrong doings that I am going to do, I am just tryna be a go getter, I mean it is 2009, what have I got to loose... ?

Beauty Is In The Eye Of The Owner

I was talking to one of my Guy friend’s - (Yes...They do exist) - as you do & then we brought up parents, telling me that he would love to marry a women as NATURAL as his mother, but females these days are making it hard because they are so Artificial, that we have so many add-ons he’d never really know who he is marrying Or as he would say “I don’t want to go out with a girl for time & every day she is looking like Gabrielle Union, then one day I wake up next to my now married wife in disbelief to find out that I have indeed married Grace Jones”…I tried to battle with him, but he was adamant in saying girls are aesthetic liars, apparently we the female demographic lie to guys with several artificial trimmings, so I asked a few other guys their views & as soon as I brought it up it was like I opened the gates to hell & a lot of guys seem to share the same views on it. So I conducted a table of what we “Lie” about, the reasons men believe we lie & general reason we love these add-ons, feel free to add on:

“LIE”	REASON BELEIVED FOR LIE	EXCUSE
Hair extensions/ weaves	Hiding lack of hair growth & generally wild picky kinky hair texture	Yes I am guilty of a weave, but weaving your hair & extensions can actually grow your hair & give you a brand new look for a while, maybe I want short hair & don’t know how it’ll look, my weave will give me insight loll.
Nail extensions	Brown nails, Short Nails & Fingernail biting	It looks nice for Gods sake; give a girl a break acrylic can also grow your nails as well & last longer than normal polish, plus its looks pretty.
Make-up	Hiding Bad skin, Blemishes, A not so nice face.	Like with the weave its artsy you can enhance an outfit with make-up, some women feel they need it for confidence & it can also add to your natural beauty, sort of like an accessory. Pretty lashes, need some mascara, pretty eyes need some eyeliner, its decoration really, just making something more physically appealing.
Padded bra’s, Wonder bras & Chicken fillets	Create a bulge or two where there is none	I’m a bit chesty, so I don’t need them but sometimes a Wonder bra can add a much needed cleavage line to a v neck outfit, padded bra’s can also be a lot more comfortable than normal bra’s & stop your nipples from poking out when its cold kmt lol
Waist Belts, Corsets & Girdles	Give A Girl Some Shape, Reduce Size	Never worn one, but if a guy hollered at a girl because she had shape on Monday & Lost her hour glass on Tuesday that’s his own stupid fault, I have no excuse for this, My Corset May Lie, But My arms won’t, you can see what size I am from them.. Not a fan of the wear a waist belt with everything trend that’s happening, but it is an accessories...
Peep toes & Heels	Hide Corns/Bunions/ Hammertime & Appear taller	Yeah I couldn’t believe it either, Maybe we should walk out in bare feet, Peep Toes were the last one I entertained, Peep toe shoes are generally what’s been sold by consumers these days & the shoes are hott, get with the times grandpapi’s, if we lie with peep toes, we lie with shoes full stop & lets not get started on men’s football toes lol. Heels are the finishing touches to an outfit, get real … I couldn’t wear that sexy number with flats. I just think the shoes complaint is just unreasonable.

One of them tried to get bold by adding fake tan to the list, but I had to remind them they were dealing with more of a Bunmi than a Becky, so that didn’t apply to my already tanned cocoa complexion... Anyways me being me would never let a personal attack of such disdained slide, I mean these guys was telling ME to my face, possessor of 1b 16inch remy weave, Topshop waist belt, 5inch KG Peep Toes, Eye-liner & Mascara Whore, That I was BALD, FAT & UGLY underneath my well decorated frame, with a few toe amenities hiding in the woodwork. So I allow the lil’ punk to resume his game of "Pro Evolution Soccer" leaving me to ponder on the seat furthest from the bed, he scores eventually & does a cheesy celebration & removed his not so custom fitted new era hat in the glory... And you know what I just had to giggle to myself, that as much as women “lie”, these dudes are fibbing as well. How many times have you met a sexy dude, Visually saying the MOST, then he removes his hat to show his true concaved head shape, more familiar types the bullet & the surfers delight peak Or better yet hairlines that are M.I.A (Missing In Action)… take it or leave it you lot are just as messed up as we are, flaw recognise flaw right.
With metro sexual males’ becoming more socially acceptable, who knows in five year time, our men could be following "Stuart" from BB & rocking that guy-liner like it’s the norm… I’m thinking maybe the beauty being inside the eye of the beholder line is become more fable than fact & that it’s actually that beauty is in the eye of the owner, we get dressed & look in the mirror, happy with the end result & then that translates to others. If someone’s attracted because they like what they see, are they not seeing what you want them to? I mean different strokes for different folks, too each their own & all that stuff but… I don’t know; you guys let me know what you think.

Entry 3 – Just Saying What I Feel…. Your Sophisticated Hustler, Phat Phat…. Gotta Love me <3

SWAGGER Vs FACEBOOK

So I am one of those unfortunate souls addicted to facebook, Its bad…but get over it, anyways facebook develops into like The must go on social networking site of 2008 (R.I.P MySpace it was nice)… like if you didn’t go on there, you didn’t exist & towards the year ending, every Tom, Dick & Femi (In my network anyways) started rinsing a word known to many as “SWAGGER”.

Okay So What Is Swagger?

Well According the Folks on Urban Dictionary Swagger/Swagga is:

Swagger
1.How one presents him or her self to the world. Swagger is shown from how the person handles a situation. It can also be shown in the person's walk.

“I got that Hollywood Swagga.”

2. A person's style- they way they walk, talk, dress.

“I'm loving his swagger!”

AND then dictionary.com not exactly Oxford of Webster, but it does the job says:

Swag.ger
– verb (used without object)
1. To walk or strut with a defiant or insolent air
2. To boast or brag noisily
– verb (used with object)
3. To bring, drive, force, etc., by blustering.
– Noun
4. Swaggering manner, conduct, or walk; ostentatious display of arrogance and conceit

So taking all of this into account, with my own understanding of the word, why do all these basic tees, Lyle & Scott wearing dudes think they have swagger.... QUESTION? And it’s not only the guys that are in denial, those wear a waist belt with everything females are on this “Swagger” move as well.
T.I said “ No One on the corner has swagger like us” (Well M.I.A technically) & then it was like a status frenzy, “ I’m The Swagger King/Queen” ,“ I’ve Gots that crazy swag” ,“ No One on the corner has swagger like moi”…. Do yourselves a favour & stop embarrassing yourselves, because people seem to forget when they do silly things like this & update there status five times a day expressing how “Fly” they are; swearing up “I’m The Boss” & Showing off how bad“ I know you want it ”…that we can see your photo-graph’s babes, If you don’t have “Swagger”…WE KNOW, If your not the boss…WE KNOW & If anybody wanted “It”…WE’D KNOW.

In closing… I’m thinking you all Swagger Dons & Dames out there, should really re- access your character traits to see if you really posses the above qualities, that your blowing your trumpets like that, because generally the ones that don’t have S!@* usually tend to delude themselves into believing they have the most S!@* to boast about, like I said in my intro….its 2009 now, its time to Show & Prove… don’t talk about it, be about it… I’m going to leave you guys with that & some flicks of peeps, that I thought was the real swagger somebody’s of 2008.
Entry 2 – Just Saying What It Is…. Your Sophisticated Hustler, Phat Phat…. Gotta Love me <3

Deuces Suckerzzzz..........

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KELIS


I don’t even remember what kelis did last year, but when I think swags, her name always pops up first lol

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KATY PERRY


Pretty Katy, She Showed Peeps about them irregular shoes, her swags are far from regular...

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T.I


This dude has an air of swagger, like from that description, seems like they was talking about him..

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SOLANGE


This Phunky Phresh Miss, She’s Come along way fashion wise, her look is So Solo..

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LAUREN CONRAD


L.C Goes Hard...

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SAM SPARRO


One glance & this dude had me sold...

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TEYANA TAYLOR


Yeah she shows & proves..

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PHARRELL


Pharrell Phresh...

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VICTORIA BECKHAM


My Wardrobe Idol, The Swagger Queen herself....VB

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KANYE WEST

Seriously, Need I Explain Why...

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ALEXIS PHIFER


Alexis Phifer made kanyeezy flyy, her swags are always so damn nice lol

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SWAGGED OUT COUPLES OF 2008...


ALEXIS PHIFER & KANYE WEST


Kudos...

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THE CARTERS - SEAN "JAY Z" CARTER & BEYONCE KNOWLES


Hip Hop Royalty, He’s so flyy, She’s so flyy, what's more flyy than him & her together right?

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THE OBAMA'S


They Got that take over the world swag...Oh Boy!!!

So 2009 is your Year as well yeah?

It’s the moment everyone was waiting for, the countdown, where they can leave those sordid memories of 2008 behind and breathe in the new metaphorical air of 2009. That idyllic moment, embracing your friends, singing ‘Auld Lang Syne’ , hoping for the best, filled with excitement and relief that you have the opportunity to start anew.

Your Facebook news feed is awash with people updating their statuses with ‘2009 is mine’ ‘2009 is my year, I’m gonna make this happen’ I mean – lets just talk about this for a moment. What exactly are you planning on doing fam? Why is 2009 yours? All these vows to change, and make resolutions are severed at the mere thought of temptation. Why do we wait for the New Year to make something happen? Should we not be on a continuous journey of trial and improvement?


Thoughts?

A New Year A New Me....Phat Phat n All That Signing In

Its 2009 baby, Can I get a Woohoooo.. & a Cheesy Smile at least (^ ^,)…It’s a New Year & Best believe I am feeling more fabulous than ever…Its something about New Years that always makes one feel a tad bit better about themselves, maybe its still all festivities from Christmas, The Holiday spirit & the blistering weather conditions that welcomes change so effortlessly into our hearts as thee clocks chime & New Year begins. I know, I for one am very excited about the New Year, I am not a firm believer in New Years Resolutions, but I vowed that this year, in the words of Mr Sam Cooke “A Change Is Gonna Come”….previously I’ll be in my ABF (Angry Black Female) Mindset & be like “ No I aint having it no more, man…I aint taking that BS” over crazy situation I am forced to face, just sounding like every other confused brownie from some slum in the UK demanding change….but where does change really come from? It come from ourselves right?...A friend told me in the early hours of the New Years Madness, through all the mayhem & drunken banter, that nothing can stop me but myself, you are your own obstacle, so if I am the only thing standing in the way of me & a desired goal for greatness, what’s stopping me? Fears & Insecurities are not bigger than me, so imma bite the bullet & challenge them to get where I need to be at. It’s the year of Possibilities, In 2009 if you believe you can achieve…..I’m ready to see what this year has In store for me, Its time to Show & Prove…lets do this! Entry 1 - Just Saying What It Is….Your Sophisticated Hustler, Phat Phat….Gotta Love Me!x. <3